One True Poem From A Housewife
This morning all I ask
Is for a wee bit of wisdom before these tasks:
The laundry, the dishes, my children’s needs and wishes
The packing, the stacking, the order the house is lacking
The cooking, the cleaning and I guess I should think about weaning…
But today I can;t find meaning in any of it.
Even though I know
This is the work the world cannot do without
I want to shout “There has been some mistake! I was not supposed to have this ordinary life!”
See, when I became a wife
I had this notion I could still go far, learn how to play guitar, be a rock star
But now that I am a mother, with only seconds sprinkled throughout the day for other, grander dreams
It seems those aspirations vaguely float around my head
Whisper who I meant to be as I make the beds, poach the eggs
Search for the self I still hope to become but find mismatched socks instead.
I stand in an old, old house that slopes in the kitchen
And I reckon the heart of any home is in that dip in front of the sink
It’s enough to drive me to drink to think of some other woman who stood here before
Growing old on this here slanted floor
And I fear there’ll be nothing left of me in fifteen years
But I banish that thought right from my brain
Because I’m not going to go insane
Not just because I have too much to do
But because it just doesn’t have to be true
Not if I revel in this choice
Use my voice
I’m going to do these fucking dishes for all womankind!
And find the courage to rescue my dreams from the trees
As well as shoulder God’s greatest responsibility:
Beating the heart of a family.
So what I have today is this:
A Cheerio-scented morning kiss
Constant companionship while I piss
Tiny fingers like calamari wrapped around my wrist
The list is longer than what I could possibly miss from some fantasy of my future
I can still suture together a poem or two
Cobble the truth with words and glue
Poetry saves me every day
What saves you?
So as I stand at the sink on this slanted floor
Thinking of the woman who stood here before
And finally comes the wisdom that I’ve been asking for:
What is Now
Is what is True
No matter how mundane, how boring, how depressing, how plain
So you see I will not go insane
No, that will not be me
I will find I way to stay free
But right now I’ve got to take my place
In the face
Wendy Lee read this to me and I had to go on line to read it again. Excellent and not so ordinary.
That says it all . . .
Thank you for your words of reality, pain and celebration. Motherhood….the privilege and prison term all in one.
I am kvelling! It should win a prize! Every mother/housewife/multitasker has been there!
Wow can I relate!!! What a great poem that touches our hearts in place where mothers have truly been. I love it!
I live it-I like it-I love it-
Same place-same time-yours and mine-
We smile-we stay-we see-we may look away-
Make a difference-do too much-we don’t lose touch-
Feed the kids-walk the dog-make the bed-kiss the frog-
Lie awake-for heaven sake-fake a grin-let me in
Walk the walk-talk the talk-walk the line-it’s yours and mine-
We pray for piece-we pray for health-we pray for money which we know is not wealth-
We love- we cry- we live- we try-
We dream -we desire- we wish- we feel the fire
Be Here Now- I don’t really know how- to learn is my vow
To live is to love-to love it is to forgive-to forgive is to LIVE!
I’m looking forward to seeing a publication”
affirmations for the housewife..thoughts to get you through.”
I think walk the line is an awesome movie, it shows the great work of jonny cash in a great way and is an adequate way to pay him tribute.
You are far from ordinary my sister-friend! I’m in awe!